Academia and Macadamia White Chocolate

Dust.
Another mountain of dust.
My hand doesn't fit to sweep away those dust.
So, I have to use a snow plow.
Woosh~

Clean and clear.
No, it is not.
But it has a little space to fit in new things.

Now, I am ready.
InsyaAllah.
To start






... reading.
Good luck, Ms Brain!
We can do this!

Footnote: The picture above has nothing to do with the dust. It is just an obsession.

Where we belong.

Currently playing: Where we belong by Zain Bhikha

Once, I was drowning in my fears
and the twinkle in my eye dissappeared
and I had no way to look on
my horizon seemed to have gone
and my whole life seemed empty and bleak
each day and night the answers I seek

But when the darkness seems so strong
and I couldn't go on
to the sky I raise my hands
making right what was so wrong I found the strength to carry on
upto heaven where I belong

In life, there are lessons to be learned
with steadfastness, paradise is earned
and if all hope seems to be gone, just hold on 'til after the storm
and if you ask what purpose have I? why am I here and why do I cry?

And when the darkness seems so strong
and you just can't go on
pray for your helping hand
you'll see the sun will rise again
you'll find the strength to carry on
upto heaven where you belong

'coz life is but a journey for us all
we cry, we laugh we run, sometimes we fall
but through it all always recall God never gives a burden too tall

When the darkness seeems so strong
and I can't go on
to the sky i raise my hands
making right what is so wrong
I find the strength to carry on
upto heaven where I belong

Coz when the darkness seems so strong
and I cant go on,
to the sky I raise my hands making right what is so wrong
I find the strength to carry on
upto heaven where I belong

upto heaven, heaven where I belong..

The reason.

Any plan should start with this.

That's for us to remember why we plan things together.

Raya 2009.

From left; Muhammad Afiq, Afiqah, Atiqah, Aqilah and Atiqurrahman.

They are my dose of heroin. And I am addicted.

Complete. After three years.
Alhamdulillah...

A little girl and a navy

I used to be that little girl who
could sleep and dream about a navy
was always proud with that navy
hugged that navy whenever he came home
And I was that girl who always thought that the navy would stay the same even after 30 years


I am the same girl who keeps hiding and running away from that navy
The very same girl who does not believe in that navy anymore
I hope Allah will forgive me for behaving this way
I need help
Really need one.

Love in a Cage

“Whoever knows the worth of women and the mystery reposing in them will not refrain from loving them; indeed, love for them is part of the perfection of a man who knows God, for it is a legacy of the Prophet and a Divine love.”-Ibn Al-’Arabi

To realise that a man should know his God first
and his purpose in life before seeking a woman to be his other half, is so beautiful. It is his pursuit of Him that he finds her. Since the man will lead the family someday, it’s in my opinion that he should know his obligations before God, his place in His eyes and then act accordingly.
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Hopefully, when the day comes, he will..

hold my hand and guide me when I am lost
protect me when I am in danger
laugh at my jokes
forgive my faults when I make a mistake
accept my flaws and imperfections

be my crying shoulders and wipe away my tears when I am sad
be patient and understanding when I am angry

be my leader and imam
be my friend and companion
be my guardian and supporter
be the father of my children

be there through sadness and sorrow, hardship and grief
be there in happiness and ease
and please me for the sake of the Creator.
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If it was easy, everybody would do it.

Ever love someone so much that you just want to vomit hearts all over the person?
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